It's your party, you can cry if you want to.

Sorry you had that experience

I "try" to remember that having no/low expectations make it hard to be disappointed when it comes to people (throw in hyped games too haha!) 🙂

* I'm old enough to look back on bad birthdays as good learning experiences and future birthdays as mile markers winding the time down here. I can't wait to leave this place, it's crazy & look forward to being with Jesus more than anything. He's the BEST!!

All my birthdays have been good luckily till now

I haven't really celebrated it for about 25yrs. Even before that I never really cared much for them. I know this sounds odd but I've always found them to be too focused on the individual which can lead to pain like what the OP has experienced. A thought I used to play around with was if birthdays are more about celebrating the world and everything in it, it's healthier than wanting everyone to celebrate you. That way the love can go to everyone instead of only a few on that day and it doesn't matter if you're alone.

(Imagine if everyone did that)

Anyway my worst would probably be my 21st. It was ok but a group of people who had been threatening to kill me turned up to my home and sat with us. I didn't ask them to leave though as I saw it as a way to reconcile. Which it somewhat did.

When I was 7 a girl pulled my hair. Apart from that my birthdays have been fine. I don't really celebrate them anyway