So I turned 18 today (30 October) and was like ok this is it, the big “you’re an adult now” moment, right? Nah, nothing. Still me, and feel more depressed by day and now just LEGALLY throwing money at CS2 cases like it somehow makes me a genius investor like OhnePixel. Already dropped over a thousand euros on Steam and traded for a stiletto knife, calling it an investment until the stupid CS2 update that crashed the market, because apparently adulting feels like I’m starring in my own Jason Statham action movie where I’m actually the stuntman that keeps dying. Every choice feels like a side quest with ass loot, every pocket money i get vanishes faster than a covert skin, and my sense of financial and emotional stability is basically a rare drop I’ll never get.

I wake up thinking maybe today I’ll finally be “responsible,” and by dinner I’ve somehow bought another case/skin, the rest of my money? GONE. And questioned every life decision I’ve ever made. My friends talk about budgeting, saving, and career goals, and I’m just out here speedrunning a CS2 map, and praying the next update doesn’t break the market entirely.

Adulting is apparently just a series of harder quests with worse loot, higher entry fees, and zero tutorials, where the tutorial itself was sold as a ETS2 DLC I couldn’t afford.

Sometimes I imagine Jason Statham yelling at me to “GET UP, KEEP MOVING, DONT QUIT!” while I sit in a ♥♥♥♥♥♥♥ puddle of my own poor decisions, wondering if this is what life is supposed to feel like. And then I check my inventory, see the stiletto knife, the skins I definitely overpaid for, and realize I’ve officially hit peak chaotic gamer-adult.
Honestly, is this adulthood, or just an endless beta test that nobody gave me the right to play?

I have no words left to say