reverse LA Noire

Honestly, this is one of those games where I sort of thought "Haha quirky autistic guy can't move his face and probably murdered his gf" to "Oh, this game is literally directly addressing me" and unlike watching american psycho to fantasise over how Patrick Bateman a man who gets mistaken for as everyone he works with as "peak masculinity" which I guess the movie leaves with us a similarly existential ending in the same sort of nihilistic tone or absurdist tone of the game, that being the mystery of who's Lila.

This game is unmistakably talking to me, in the raw and dirty sense of the conflicts I've gone through with identity and self perception, I think the scene that stuck with me the most was when Lila was telling Will to pretty much die, and let her fully take control, like changing the lenses of a kaleidoscope. Yeah obviously the part where Will begs her to stop getting him to kill dogs, where you fall to your death and you see her face like a warm mother gripping on to you, it's bone chilling.

The simple fact is, the greatest mystery isn't who Lila is or isn't but who you are. Because really that's the real conflict and transgression at heart. is who are you. if someone like Will can be so easily liquid in his personas and identities. The real mystery is who's me or you, and much like with Lila it's sort of better if we don't answer it leave it up for interpretation and give it room to be more than just a question but let it live a life of its own.

epic